Sunday, July 19, 2009

Only half a cup, please.

I'm signing in to say I'll be away for a few days at least. Very, very early Monday morning I'll be heading in for what the hospital calls "bilateral breast reduction mammoplasty" but which I am referring to as my "boob-smallening" surgery.

I'm nervous. I've been thinking seriously about this procedure for two years, and I feel very strongly that it's the right thing to do and the right time to do it, but I'm still nervous. Hospitals are really not a place I ever like to go. When you're generally an anxious person anyway, having something to legitimately feel anxious about (as opposed to all the improbable ridiculous things you normally feel anxious about) is unpleasant.

However, my word for 2009 is "pursue," and that's what I've been trying to do, so right now I am pursuing a life with less pain and hopefully better health, too. And smaller, cuter bras!

This past week, I cooked and froze a ton of meals so that I don't have to cook for at least a week after the surgery. I washed every piece of clothing in the house so I'll have plenty of clean things to wear. Today my goal is to pull as many weeds as I can so that the flowerbeds don't revert completely to jungle while I'm recovering, and give all the rooms a fast de-cluttering and polishing and wiping-down.

I don't know how long it will take me to feel better after the surgery, but I'm figuring on at least a week before I can do the general household stuff again, and probably longer before I can get out and garden or walk in the park. Not sure what to expect, really. But I wanted to be prepared with food and laundry!

So I will check in when I can type again--whenever that will be! Probably not too long. Wish me luck!